I hide things. I've done it for as long as I can remember. Books, money, feelings, thoughts.. I hide things. I don't know why, but I do.

Also, I run. I run away from problems, and I run away from anything that might cause problems. I'm a coward most of the time, but I pretend to be strong.

Over the past four years so much has changed in my life. I moved countless times, I walked away from friendships that were as old as I was at the time. I dropped out of college, changed career goals, moved to yet another city, made a couple new friends. I'm getting really tired of this, though. The picking up and moving, the making new friends, the endless cycle of never feeling like I belong where I end up.

I lost some of the best friends a person could ask for in all of this. Do I still talk to some of them? Occasionally, but it's nothing like it used to be. Mostly now we talk about what we had done since the last time we talked, never really wanting to get too deep. Of course, this is my own fault - people don't trust me anymore. I don't blame them. Now, don't get me wrong. I don't go around spreading secrets or betraying people. I just have a bad track record with leaving and hurting people in the process.

I'm trying to change that.